There are times in my life when I look back and cringe.. all be it at some point I can laugh at my mistakes.. it can take a while…

I appear to be having a lot of these experiences recently on my journey to ‘know  myself better!’ and to ‘grow into a more mature, wiser, loving being’.

Around six months ago I was told that my life would get very tough. That all the parts of me that didn’t belong to me would begin to change, transform and that it was a great time of transistion.. I took it well. The message was repeated.. three times over the coming months by different sources, astrologically, psychically and intuitively with the promise of November being the end of that particular journey. ‘How hard could it be?’ I told myself.. Changing old patterns.. becoming real.. being stripped of illusions… And then it started…

The best way to liken it, is to compare it to having yourself dumped into a huge food blender and being put on high speed… My entire world was turned upside down, inside out and universally spat out in little pieces with me clinging on to everything I knew for grim death… ahh… the ego, how it loves to interfere.. My ego, as  I have discovered is very stubborn with an award winning oscar for denial and resistance..

From my own personal experience  this is the wisdom and insight I have gained so far…

Do step out of your own way.. surrender, let go and know that what is going to come out of the ‘experience’ is pure truth, wisdom and a higher way of being… It may not feel like it at the time though…

Know that hanging on to  old ways of being are just an attempt to stay unconscious and if the Universe has decided to ‘re-organise’ that then you are in for a rollar coaster ride..

Know that as you are being re-arranged and re-constructed you may feel that you are going insane.. possibly bi-polar with a touch of schizophrenia…

Do not enter into a new relationship at this time… it enhances the bi-polar part and inevitably doesn’t end well…  with hindsight it would make more sense to wait for the storm to pass…

When spinning out of control.. retreat, breathe, allow it to pass and stay free of reacting from the ‘spinning’ place. All decisions made without the wisdom of the heart only hurt and cause more chaos than good.

know that like any challenge it is only temporary and that as you shift so does your reality and that what lies underneath the surface is purity, truth, love and a life that is truely greater than you can possibly imagine… The Universe really does want the best for you in every way and know that at every given moment you are being the very best that you can be with the tools you were given on this bizarre planet of human beings learning to love…

Be very careful of the company you keep… Those that claim to help may be doing more damage than good… If something or someone doesn’t feel right that is because it isn’t.

And last but not least.. forgive yourself for your mistakes… Go easy on yourself -  and learn to love yourself with grace and compassion. You are divine – It’s just your the last one to realise. The joke is always on You!

It isn’t always easy but it is rewarding… roll on November – November I love you and October.. Thank you.. My feet slowly appear to be landing back on the ground and day by day I feel a little bit stronger, a little bit wiser and everything begins to make more and more sense..

You are and will always be far greater than you could possibly imagine.. Don’t give up on who you are, your dreams, hopes and ideals.. You are the creator and master of your own reality and when things go wonky it’s only so that when you re-align those dreams, hopes and ideals are closer, larger and more magnificent than anything you could have imagined before…

Know that you are loved. you are love and that love is always around you.. dream big and live hard!

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Growing Up…

It appears to have been a time in my life where room for growth has been necessary. What I’ve noticed about me is there is a rather large amount of resistance to this process… Like there is still a small girl operating inside my being with the stubbornness and childlike world view of a… well seven year old…

After feet stamping and what I refer to as ‘wasp head’, plenty of mind games and a common english expression.. ‘head f**ks’, my child realizes that ‘yes’, she did ask for that, but no… the Universe delivered it in a completely different way to the ‘pretty packaged envision’ that she had anticipated. This is confusing for a child and then all hell breaks loose in her self constructed world…

But… there is hope…

My child is beginning to like the woman in me. And… after years of pointless ruminating she is beginning to understand that trantrums and mood swings get you nowhere… and that maybe, just maybe there is wisdom and grace in the feminine heart.

There is a feminine being with true presence and authenticity that knows how to take care of her… all she has to do is stop stamping and listen to what whispers softly deep in her being and a light comes on… A light that is able to see that everything is perfect how it is… A knowing that growing up is all about owning your insecurities, your stubborn child and a mind that can refuse to surrender with the ferociousness of a lioness… And a knowing that as that light begins to shine the stubborn kid stops stamping and starts watching – even smiling as she finally begins to realize that she is after all.. well and truly taken care of…

Growing up is about showing up… It’s about stepping into your wisdom and leaving your old ways behind… The process might not always be delicate or graceful… but it’s taking you further than you’ve ever been before and into a place where truth, wisdom, love and authenticity are your natural state and gateway into your journey back to self…

There are days when things just begin funny… You wake up and feel slightly distracted… edgy… drop things and feel unfocused… What to do? In my case I usually try to find some kind of meaning or stalk around my bungalow liked a caged lion… meditation… doesn’t work. Exercise clears the energy but still the undercurrent is there… And then… as if I didn’t know it already, I catch myself thinking dumb things, allowing insignificant thoughts to pop in and play football in my head… usually they’ve scored a hat trick before I realize I’ve been hijacked and taken hostage…

And… when even the chocolate fails… I realize something… (finally).

Some days we just wake up… not quite right. The story doesn’t matter. Did it matter yesterday when everything was balanced and harmonious?

Analyzing… mental gymnastics gets me absolutely nowhere, and sometimes… it’s just the way it is… I woke up funny. My day can change at any point that I choose to change the way I perceive it…

And then a beautiful friend emails a message of inspiration on and it all falls into place…

‘Gabrielle Wheelie Wicked-Womyn when we withhold love in relationship, in response to feeling ‘wronged’ by someone, we’re out of alignment with our natural state of love, & probably hurt ourselves more than the other through the energy it takes to withhold. It’s a good reason to make peace with yourself & loved ones today. To those I’ve withheld my love from. I Love You, I’m Sorry, Please Forgive Me.’

I’m making peace with Me today and sending love to You.

Today is the day that I get out of my head and back into my heart and celebrate everything that crosses my path by giving my gratitude back to life and how if you give yourself the space and chance… Something will always show you the way back to you.

I love you. I’m sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you… x

Very recently my heart was broken. It feels weird to share this but my path is about truth and I can’t hide anymore. Who I am, where I am going and what I am becoming… Not to mention what I already am…. And the thing about broken hearts is… we have a choice. Shut down, hide and re-endorse our negative patterns – a self-created reality which then repeats itself over and over again every time we enter something outside our personal boundaries and make ourselves vulnerable to another. Or enter the pain and find the wisdom of that moment. I choose the latter. I choose to set myself free and to rise into another way…

I choose to take my wounds and love them. I choose to love and honor and forgive all teachers and myself of these places of unhealed darkness that my heart brings to my attention and I choose to be fearless in facing everything that I am. I also today choose to change the way I view all beings that walk this planet. To see the Goddess in All women and the God in All men, the highest, most beautiful vision that all spiritual beings can be… because we are All divine and unique and wonderful beyond our wildest imagination and it’s time for us All to have that Acknowledged and Seen by our Brothers and Sisters…

If I share my truth right here, right now – take my broken heart and alchemize the pain into love, to be unconditional in my way of giving, being and becoming… to surrender with grace all residence to old ways, fears, control and patterns, then I allow myself to shine brighter and stronger and this in turn affects my reality and everyone around me…

I choose to dive into my heart, strip away the illusions and to move into an even deeper place of love, authenticity, freedom, grace and joy… I am ready. Ready to really be me and in doing so, if this inspires just one person to be ready to look deep inside and know they are not alone then a little bit more magic and grace touches the Earth and gives Love, Joy and Inspiration to all that inhabit it…

Today everything changes and miracles will happen because Love and Magic is everywhere and stepping up into grace and truth is where it is…

Spread your wings and fly… you have nothing to lose and everything to gain…

A message from the heart…

If we are aware… really aware, then every day living here on this planet would be seen as a true gift to all.

Every person that we cross paths with has a message to convey and every message has a meaning in it for you. The trick is to be open to each moment and treat it as unique. It’s unique because once it has passed another unique situation is already presenting itself… We only have right now… memories we can treasure but they fade with time – hazy imprints on our soul… and the future is only known by the Universe, as much as we want to know and grasp, like we have any control over it anyway… (you wanna make God laugh? Tell him your plans!) What is manifesting is a combination of your thoughts, emotions and the blue print of your divine plan…

And sometimes a true soul connection will enter your life and touch your heart in a way that opens and inspires, and creates room for more depth, more truth and will align you into a place of deeper authenticity of who you really are…  And… as there is always an exchange in this world,  you will also have something precious to share. We are all mirrors of each other, reflections of grace and purity, if you choose to wear the right glasses…

So when that soul mate does appear, whether it lasts 5 minutes or a life time, whether it’s intimate, a friendship or something indefinable, remember you have been touched by grace, that the moments you share are infinitely precious and that these connections are a true gift from the Universe….

All we have is love… And love is all there is…

So… where are we all going? Times are changing indeed and a huge shift is needed in order for a new vibration to occur in mass consciousness…

Where do we go from here? Well… you could continue to read the news and shake your head at the troubles manifesting in the outer world, live in fear or ignorance and bury your head in the sand… blame someone or something else for your present unhappiness or… you could turn your attention within. This is really the most crucial time to work on your inner vibration. As a spiritual being in a human body we are each responsible for our thoughts, actions and intentions… Everything you are is manifesting in outer forms… all you think and feel will project outwards and the mass destruction we are seeing in the world is a symptom of human consciousness at its greatest dysfunction.

However… it is just an old paradigm shift… crazy as it sounds… Humans either evolve or face extinction… What do you choose? Old Paradigm: Lack, fear, blame and loss of power or New Paradigm: Abundance, self empowerment, responsibility for self and complete self-love and living in each moment with love and acceptance for others. Your karma ceases when you choose to own your personal vibration and elevate it into your heart and spirit. You are infinitely precious in the eyes of the divine…

My advice is to turn within and face your own personal demons… Take back your power. One of the huge crisis’s in this world is that we have forgotten our spirit and what resides in our hearts… The power to change anything if enough beings are ready to transcend old programs, ways of behaving and to let go of whatever it is that is holding them back from their own personal authenticity… Start by clearing what makes you unhappy, whether it be toxic relationships, living arrangements or a job that leaves you sapped of energy. Tell yourself you deserve the best and change what you consider to be ‘the worst’.

The paradigm shift is about moving from fear to love and in order to do this you must know your own soul and its personal boundaries. Say no to close the doors on the old to make space to be open to bring in the yes’s – this is a way of moving yourself into acceptance and love very, very quickly… make way for the new energy that is coming into this earth at a faster rate than ever before and you will see that you will gain more self-mastery and self empowerment in your life in ways that only the Universe can show you… Live, love, laugh, cry and be free to express who you are and what you are… a unique vibration effecting all of creation with your energy and zest… You are everything and everything is you…

Empowerment isn’t always easy. There are many lessons to learn on the way… at times it may seem dark and painful but the rewards are more than worth it as your space begins to clear and the magic is able to pierce your soul… You are divine. Don’t ever forget it.

Remember who you are….

Life is funny… don’t you think? Moving into the body? What does that mean? Aren’t we already in our bodies?

I can only speak from my own experience but no… not all of us are. In fact, most of us have a complete fear of moving down into ourselves and allowing ourselves to be. This only came to my attention when I had my spirit evoked… Something which didn’t happen that long ago considering that I have been alive in this particular body for 36 years… 

There is so much more to us than any of us can possibly imagine… And forget about the ‘ascension’ process and think about it as a ‘descension’ process. That you are spiritual beings living a human experience and bringing your spiritual, magical bodies down into the physical where your light and love is so very much needed… Therefore your physical body is your vehicle, your choice of incantation. It is yours to love and nurture and part of you whilst you are living here on this planet. It also has feelings, every cell holds consciousness, is alive with memories, stories and emotions and is constantly striving to keep you fit and healthy despite the barrage of toxins and chemicals it is subjected to on a daily basis internally and externally. It really is a miracle and something to honour and treasure – every part of it fighting for your well-being and healthiness… 

So moving down into the body is a real challenge for many. We spend a lot of time distracting ourselves from ‘feelings’ and ‘emotions’ but these things are all energy and if we don’t pay attention to them, where do you think they go? Yep. In the body. And when the body is full of blocked energy, where do you think the spirit goes? Hehe… (I love working with spirit) It tries to hide, or decides that it is going to reside only in the top two chakras… The crown and the third eye…  And of course, we feel that disconnection. It’s where most people are. Trying to escape anything that is real because all that blocked energy is a serious challenge…

It can be moved… Anything can be shifted. Illnesses can be healed, physical, mental or emotional. It doesn’t matter what it is as long as you are willing to take the steps forward to clear the way. You are far more powerful than you can possibly imagine and taking control of your vehicle and spiritual well-being is the way it works… Moving into the body and learning to love yourselves no matter what you’ve gone through or who you are is where it’s all at… And understanding that it is you and only you that can make these changes with guidance and help from those you trust…

And on that note… I am off to honour my body. A month of intensive yoga training to move my own ‘blocked energy’ and understand the mechanics of how I am built… Maybe one day to teach… I like knowing my body and listening to it speak, actually being part of this earth and full of consciousness. I feel blessed to be alive and excited to take a new challenge…  

So I won’t be around for a month to answer emails or enquiries but will be back after the 27th July. 

Bye for now & keep feeling… thats how you know you are alive and blessed – even the tears and anger, it’s all ok. You signed up for this remember and everything that you are is perfect for your growth right here and right now… xxx

I watched something amazing today… something that I already feel but has been put into words by Shaman, Keisher Crowther on the ascension of humans as gods and goddesses regaining our true selves, transcending the mind and moving back into our hearts and spirits:

Little Grandmother Speaks to all of us. Truth is always simple, and so are her words.

This is a must see as it concerns all of us and our journey to our heart again. We are the ones we have been waiting for.

Part 1: http://vimeo.com/9928120

Part 2: http://vimeo.com/9931129

The first spirit guides I ever became aware of were Native Americans. As a small child I used to draw a picture of a Native American woman stood next to a Tepee, and one night, around the same time, when I was having trouble sleeping, a warrier appeared before my eyes in a small holographic form and ran forwards throwing a spear. As suddenly as he appeared he vanished… I wasn’t scared by this, I remember feeling greatly comforted by what I had just witnessed and  fell asleep instantly. The next day I told my mum that I had seen a ‘little man’ in my room. Of course no one believed me and I learned to keep quiet. But… I never forgot.

When I was in my early twenties the dreams started. Then a series of synchronicities that finally drew me to my first ever psychic reading with a clairvoyant. The first words out of his mouth were that I had two Native American Spirit Guides standing right next to me and then he proceeded to tell me about the dreams I had been having… I was captivated… This was my first experience of finding someone that finally understood what was happening. This amazing person had a profound affect on my life and without my visit to the psychic fare that fateful day guided by my Native American Spirit Guides – I may not be doing what I do now…

I don’t feel that the path we are on can be called ‘New Age’… Not for me anyway… It’s about remembering our truth and returning to who we once were… What’s new about that? You see, all of us already know… Deep down when we move past the mind and it’s confines and learn to listen to our spirits and hearts we can feel that magic inside of us, our own inner knowing… and that part of us is anything but new. It’s always been and always will be… And it just is… As eternal beings we are at the beginning of accessing our true potential, something that cannot be hidden or deceived any longer by external influences… So… buckle up tight and enjoy the ride… roll on 2010!